INkosana yeMatrix ibolile ngokungenathemba ngaphakathi. Kwaye oku kubola kufikelela kumanqanaba abandayo ngokwenene.
Intlungu yabanye abantu kunye nabamelwane bakhe, kubandakanywa nabalingane bakhe abasondeleyo (!), Inika ulonwabo … ulonwabo olunzulu … ukuzonwabisa okumnandi. Kwaye okukhona ezi ntlungu zibuhlungu, kokukhona ulonwabo lwakhe lubonakala ngakumbi kwaye lubandakanya konke: unxiliswe ngokoqobo. Intlungu yommelwane ifana nesiyobisi esinamava abandakanya imbono ecacileyo yento engekhoyo kuye, iyeza aphantsi kwalo ngoku ngokupheleleyo nelithi mihla le lihlaze imvelaphi yakhe ezukileyo yasezulwini.
Inkosana likhoboka lentolongo eyakhileyo ngokwayo. Yaye oku kuvalelwa kuye kwamgoba ngokwasenyameni kwaza kwamophula ngokokuziphatha nangokomoya. Ukuqiqa kwakhe kunye nobulumko buyaphela ngokuqhwanyaza kweliso phambi kwechiza lakhe, elisebenzisa ubukhosi obupheleleyo phezu kwakhe. Enyanisweni yinkosi yakhe. Phambi kwayo uyaguqa aze athobe usuku nosuku ngendlela ephantsi.
Hayi indlela ekulusizi ngayo ukubona ikherubhi yamandulo enamaphiko awoluliweyo iguqa phambi kweyona sadism ingathintelekiyo nekhohlakeleyo, ilangazelela ukusa kwinqanaba lobumfama ukuzisa ukubandezeleka nentuthumbo kuye nabani na oyingqongileyo, enoba lutshaba okanye umhlobo. Kwaye oku kugqwetheka kophule yonke imida ngoku, ude ayonwabele ukubandezeleka kwakhe kwaye uyonwabele izenzo zakhe zemihla ngemihla zokuzithoba.
Into enganyamezelekiyo kwingqondo ephilileyo iyanqweneleka kuye. Into edelelayo, ethoba isidima, ethob’ isidima, engafanelekanga kwaye ehlazisayo, kuye iyavuyisa kwaye iyavuselela.
Owayesakuba ngumntwana wekhwezi lokusa uwile esibhakabhakeni waba kwimeko ethob’ isidima yokuthotywa nokutshabalalisa kangangokuba yonke imolekyuli yobuntu bakhe ineentloni ukummela.
Inyaniso yokwenyani yeyokuba ‘inkosana’ likhoboka elilusizi elathi, kwimizuzu embalwa yokuziva likhululekile, lizithiye ngokunzulu kwaye lizigqala njengezothe, lizothe kwaye linesicaphucaphu.
Lowo uzibiza ngokuba ngumzi wokukhanya ngoku akazisi nto ngaphandle kokubola, ukutenxa, izifo, ukonakala, i-schizophrenia kunye nokugqwetheka. Lowo wayekade esesona sidalwa sinobukhazikhazi kwindalo iphela ngoku ubolile ngaphakathi, kodwa ubolile kangangokuba livumba elibi elimkhaphayo naphi na apho aya khona.
Kubonakala ngathi ndiyaliqonda eli vumba: livumba lokufa!